Whatabouts

I was looking for a possible topic for my thesis proposal and i ran through Lisa Ray's page. She is actually a promising international actress. At 37 she was diagnosed with multiple myeloma. It's a rare "incurable" cancer of the bone marrow.

So here are the the signals: always exhausted, pale, drained, and completely depleted of red blood cells. The lack of oxygen can make you a serial yawner and spacier.

It actually scares me. My BP is significantly low though constant at 85/60. But of all my objective assessments, the most apparent is that I yawn more than usual. And you just know when something is not kosher with your body.

Or maybe I'm just a big time sleepyhead. Argh. Sometimes it is really better not knowing. Ignorance don't scare me, big facts do.

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rainy days

Wonders, wonders go away.
Days my own Grinch created has begun today.
Rain, rain how they break me.
Funny how they make you happy.


I don't like the rain that much. I don't like it when it's cloudy. I don't know why, I guess it's because it just reminds me of when I was little. I am a weakling and as soon as it gets gloomy I should be inside the house. I used to get sad to the fact that most of the children my age could run the streets when its raining and I can't because of my weak lungs. Now when it rains it saddens me out and it just puts me in a chill mood.

^ my stolen childhood

12:20am

It has been raining on and off for the last 48 hours. It's not raining at this hour. Though it's dark, I feel like it's just bleak outside.

But I'm trying to remember this quote

"...catching raindrops. To each drop a name, and there’s one you’re dying to find, but how? For each one is a possibility, a chance dividing infinitely in all directions every second. I know you’re not really fascinated with rain. But hey, lately you’ve been catching a raindrop, the one that carried my name.”

(and of course a cup of hot dark sweet coffee) to show rainy days aren't all bad.


I just want to know,
if you'll gonna be with me til the next sunshine tickles me?

photo credit: "Singing in the Rain" by Neloqua

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