For the bleak days, nice try

Being on the verge of losing my enthusiasm on studying, its funny how things at school could be so easy for me. I'm going to believe now that everything starts to work out right just when you are to think of quiting, just when you think that its time for loneliness again.

I was seriously considering moving away - work, perhaps and live on my own - for the sake of my sanity. Besides, with two years left I don't expect anything except for mediocrity and a diploma at best would happen to me in nursing school.

I just feel happy today. Seeing the sun shines like this day (with you at my side, whether virtually or not) hell, I don't want anything else. I just want to hug the lightness of being I feel now.

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rainy days

Wonders, wonders go away.
Days my own Grinch created has begun today.
Rain, rain how they break me.
Funny how they make you happy.


I don't like the rain that much. I don't like it when it's cloudy. I don't know why, I guess it's because it just reminds me of when I was little. I am a weakling and as soon as it gets gloomy I should be inside the house. I used to get sad to the fact that most of the children my age could run the streets when its raining and I can't because of my weak lungs. Now when it rains it saddens me out and it just puts me in a chill mood.

^ my stolen childhood

12:20am

It has been raining on and off for the last 48 hours. It's not raining at this hour. Though it's dark, I feel like it's just bleak outside.

But I'm trying to remember this quote

"...catching raindrops. To each drop a name, and there’s one you’re dying to find, but how? For each one is a possibility, a chance dividing infinitely in all directions every second. I know you’re not really fascinated with rain. But hey, lately you’ve been catching a raindrop, the one that carried my name.”

(and of course a cup of hot dark sweet coffee) to show rainy days aren't all bad.


I just want to know,
if you'll gonna be with me til the next sunshine tickles me?

photo credit: "Singing in the Rain" by Neloqua

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