Superman is dead

I have had perfect moments for the last two years of my life. But something is always missing at some point or another. Because maybe I've left something hanging in the past. The the thought of the usual what if's and ambiguity. But now it's gone. And I've never been this sure about it.

Yes. Superman is dead.

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i'm late on my wedding day

Today my body alarm clock woke me up at 5am. My class starts at 9am though. So I scribbled some lines on my pad and then fell asleep. I hate this alarm clock, it's terrible I was late on my research and missed a quiz. I finally got around to read my pad where I wrote this morning which I'm quiet giddy with.

the promise of something
that would last a lifetime
to hell and back,
through gravity and lightness of living
over bitches and assholes
in sickness and in health
to be with you

i am alone
- with the love of my life,
happiest
today is my wedding day..


(everyday is.) :D

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hey, earthling!

happy birthday, my little sunshine.

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To Love

to love

all i want tonight is to be next to you. like that when i curled on the bus seat and stare at you making faces. or just walk with you, keeping our feet in those little squares. (._.) and i know you know i waited for you for 2 and a half hours. but i need you to know that you made my heart fell out of me the moment i saw you again. always like the first time. yeah. like, "there's the love of my life!"

-me

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HAPPY holidays

today i was such a loser. hahahaha!
yeah right. you won on that "sipaan" video game. haha.
and you're still unbeatable in shooting hoops. poops! :p

i really don't care. (pero di ko sinasabing di na ko babawi)
haha. i love your smile and laughter everytime you beat me (devilhorn).
today is extra sunny because of you.

today was fun.

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I could have written something like this for you but Pablo Neruda already did

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Some Story

In fairy tales and legends, it is explicit that romance would make it through improbabilities, boy meets girl, beating up dragons and wicked witches for a happy ever after. I have my own story. And its own real big monsters, too. I don't know how I would call it that's why its "Some Story". I don't know how to tell it because I can't. To fucking hell with the world because I can't tell it! Sometimes those fairy tales are more real than my realities.

I didn't go to class today. I said I would but I didn't. I can't. I just can't. Because you can't break down in a class of 45. And I can't either stay in my room. I need to be somewhere else right now. Or feel something else. Make me. This feeling is poison.

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1.8

20thmushy.day.

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big love

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Whatabouts

I was looking for a possible topic for my thesis proposal and i ran through Lisa Ray's page. She is actually a promising international actress. At 37 she was diagnosed with multiple myeloma. It's a rare "incurable" cancer of the bone marrow.

So here are the the signals: always exhausted, pale, drained, and completely depleted of red blood cells. The lack of oxygen can make you a serial yawner and spacier.

It actually scares me. My BP is significantly low though constant at 85/60. But of all my objective assessments, the most apparent is that I yawn more than usual. And you just know when something is not kosher with your body.

Or maybe I'm just a big time sleepyhead. Argh. Sometimes it is really better not knowing. Ignorance don't scare me, big facts do.

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