To My Continuity Girl

I lay down on my frozen bed tonight, 33 hours after the board exam result. But everything else within feels so lucky and warm. Yes, I'm overjoyed. Yesterday was perhaps the best day my life. With you right there, holding everything up for me. Tight. Unwavering. Until the good has finally found its way of revealing itself. I'm sorry for tagging you to such heartache. Thank you. It wasn't excruciating as it seemed because you have taken half of everything from the start.

Though I thought my esophagus shut down and didn't came back for sometime after, I know that was the best noodle cup I ever had. The best bottle of cold punch. The best unfamiliar place to celebrate. The best start of something barely known. Because I was with you. And we had happiness for dinner.

I have something with which I can identify now when you say you're proud of me and so I'm overjoyed.

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Whatabouts

Hello.

Board Exams over so I'm buying myself few stuff to get busy with. Like volunteering on Jen's thesis' research works, organizing my desk and the house, watching series and movies on my list one after the other, reading postdated books, vising old places (real or virtual) that I've forgotten. I'm also reliving traditional journal-ing so I feel like I'm overdoing it when I write here simultaneously with tumblr. :)

Nevertheless, I did this list on my checklist booklet.

I hope to finish these when my vacations over:

A Spot of Bother

Jonathan Livingston Seagull

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

A Love to Kill

Numbers Season 1

Sex and the City

Sex and the City 2

My thesis (part 2, ha ha) - actually Jen's.

Learn After Effects (basic)

Explore photoshop (the next level)

Job hunt

So far, these are the items that's already been slashed. ^^,

A Love Story in Harvard

Harry Potter 7.1

Harry Potter 7.2

EonGrey the digital version

*Photoshop and After Effects projects, they make extra rooms for expanding my ill-patience.

I'll be trying to reach out the world I've taken for granted for some time, too. I miss the feeling of writing for the blind audience. Or at least how I imagined it. There's the difference about writing in a notebook and a blog. The latter gives the writer the feeling that people she don't even know could read through her blog and hope to somehow impart some idea or inspiration or just simple un-reciprocated conversation like what I get from other blogs.

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Everyone!

:D

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MD0802

by my favorite artist

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whatabouts whereabouts

I'm pseudo-painting again. Pseudo because I'm never really getting into any figure yet. And ratio of my sleep to actually painting is grave. I am actually in a graveyard shift this week, so what do I expect. I just wish I could finish it before the exhibit. And make the most difficult part of art: giving a just title.

Oh, and the world seems to do it again. Mock. But bring it on. You can't shake my ground. I learned to just stuck my tongue out on you.



P.S. Never try to look for me either. I'm happiest here.

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Read somewhere

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november 2

I'll love you until like it's 19x100 months.

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It just keeps getting better

nothing is worse. old music, new music, films, books, paintings, photographs, poems, random conversations, trees, clouds, rainbow, aspirations, job. they don't become less everyday, they are just different.

there are happy days, happier days and happiest day. but there are no lonely days. it's only that you are happier yesterday than you are today...

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For the bleak days, nice try

Being on the verge of losing my enthusiasm on studying, its funny how things at school could be so easy for me. I'm going to believe now that everything starts to work out right just when you are to think of quiting, just when you think that its time for loneliness again.

I was seriously considering moving away - work, perhaps and live on my own - for the sake of my sanity. Besides, with two years left I don't expect anything except for mediocrity and a diploma at best would happen to me in nursing school.

I just feel happy today. Seeing the sun shines like this day (with you at my side, whether virtually or not) hell, I don't want anything else. I just want to hug the lightness of being I feel now.

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seventeen minutes to midnight

Had I been so sad for a very long time that now I can’t make anyone believe that I can really be happy for a day?

Maybe.

And maybe proving something is a crap. But for a particular person, I’ll prove that I can tie up tight my happy strings again.

If I had a bad try today, I’ll still give a try tomorrow. And even days after tomorrow. I still believe that that day will come when I can be happy without even trying and you would believe that.

Even if for now there is nobody else but me left to believe that.

(12.03am. I already consumed 3 minutes of the day where I should start being happy again rambling. So I think I should sleep.)

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11pm

happiness
is the last thing I thought I'd feel lately.
love
is what I'm breathing again.
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love is not like Santa so i think i should keep believing on it..

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